Understanding...

In the past couple of weeks, I've felt like I am carrying a hundred pounds on my chest, not being able to breathe, get up or even get thru each day. Feeling lost, feeling like I'm not doing a good job as a mom, a wife, or even

understanding myself. The feeling of defeat and anger is constant and admitting to myself that something is not ok it's hard. So how do I get out of this funk and this feeling of defeat? What hurts the most is knowing that I have the most amazing kids, an amazing partner, a great family, and amazing friends, but it is like something is always missing. So what is it?, what am I missing?, what do I do differently?, is it my way of thinking?, am I being stubborn with myself? So I am hoping that what I am experiencing right now is going to teach me something. That I learn to rise above it and become a stronger individual.