Breathe...

In the past week, I have found myself in that instance where you are not sure if you will ever breathe again, it is that moment when something takes your breath away and you do not know how to begin breathing again. The dictionary has various definitions for this word, but the one that stood with me was, TO FEEL FREE OF RESTRAIN // I NEED ROOM TO BREATHE. That was my exact feeling, it was as if something was not letting me be free of the restraints that were keeping me down. It had been a while since I felt like that, the inability not to feel free and able to move forward was debilitating. I felt I had lost control of myself, of who I was, lost my way completely. But God is always holding my hand, I am just too stubborn to see it at times, and on Wednesday evening I started to realize that is not that I could not breathe, it was that I let all these negative feelings take over me, to realize those amazing blessings I have every day, that many individuals are also holding my hand, that I have an amazing group of women that are a call away to help me see my blessings. I guess what I am trying to say is that sometimes we let one negative experience block all the wonderful and amazing things that are happening in our lives. Take a moment, close your eyes, and realize that you are breathing, that you are alive, that each day is a gift, that each day might not be perfect, but it is up to us to dwell on that moment because it is easier than to focus on all the blessings you might have received that day. May each day we see the blessings that are always going to be bigger than that one negative thing.